SO THINGS ARE LOOKING UP.  I HAD A JOB INTERVIEW ON THE 14TH.  FROM THE EARLY REPORTS I HAVE RECIEVED, IT WENT REALLY WELL.  IF I GET THIS JOB, AND I HOPE I DO, I WILL BE MAKEING AT LEAST $13.00 AND HOUR.  THAT WOULD BE AWSOME.  ANYWAY I AM GOING TO GO GET SOME FOODGAE, AND CHECK THE REST OF MY MAIL, BUT TO THOSE THAT KEEP UP WITH MY LIVE JOURNAL, KEEP THINKING ABOUT ME, AND I'LL POST SOMETHING ELSE WHEN I HEAR ABOUT IT.

KELLY

I THINK THAT IF YOU WERE GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE, HERE ARE SOME GOOD WAYS OF DOING IT.

AT THE TOP OF THE LIST WELL FOR MEN ANYWAY:
HANGING, BUT THAT TAKES A HIGH SKILL LEVEL.

EAT A BULLET, BUT THEN AGAIN I THINK LEAD TAIST FUNNY.

ELECTRIC SHOCK, BUT THAT ONE COULD END BAD.

OVER DOSE, I LIKE THAT ONE BUT NO MONEY FOR DRUGS.

DECAPITATION, BUT WITH THIS METHOD YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFULL, AND NOT LOOSE UR HEAD AT THE LAST MOMENT.

AND LASTLY DEATH BY VEHICLE EXHAUST, .....SEE NUMBER 3, LESS THE DRUGS.


JUST REMEMBER THAT IF YOU WRIGHT SOMETHING LIKE THIS AND GET CAUGHT, PEOPLE AND FRIENDS MIGHT THINK THAT YOU HAVE LOST YOUR HEAD, AND GONE CRAZY, JUST TELL THEM NO AND TELL THEM TO SEE NUMBER 4.  TELL THEM YOU HAVNT GOTTEN THAT FAR...YET.


KELLY

YOU KNOW I WANDER IF LIFE WILL EVER GET ANY BETTER?!  I WENT OUTSIDE TO GO SMOKE, (SORRY I KNOW ITS TERRIBLE)  MY MOTHER HAD WENT BACK INSIDE AFTER WALKING THE DOG AND SET THE ALARM.  SHE EVEN CALLED ME AND ASK SOMETHING.  THEN I WENT BACK INSIDE THE HOUSE, AND THE ALARM TRIPPED.  SHE CAME AROUND THE CORNER, SCREAMING.  "WHAT DID YOU DO?"  I SAID ALL I DID WAS CAME BACK INSIDE!  SHE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID YOU HAVE TO GO, WE CAN'T LIVE TOGEATHER ANYMORE, YOU STUPID FUCK!!!  MY MOTHER CALLS ME MANY THINGS, SHE TELLS ME ALOT OF THINGS, BUT PERSONALLY I DONT THINK IM STUPID, AND I TOLD HER CALL ME MANY THINGS BUT DONT CALL ME STUPID.  THAT IS A ALTIME LOW.  SOMETIME I WANDER WHY I EVEN WANT TO KEEP ON LIVING, BUT I DO IT BECUASE, I STILL HAVE MY FRIENDS.  BUT THATS ABOUT IT.  OH WELL MAYBIE THINGS WILL GET BETTER, BUT AT THIS POINT IM SO DEPRESSED, I JUST WANT TO CRAUL UNDER A ROCK AND DIE.  OH WELL, THINGS ARE AS THEY ARE. 

KELLY
01 JAN 2009
2139HRS